I hope everyone has been enjoying the ever changing weather recently; April has certainly felt like a bit of battleground between the departing Winter and the newly arrived Spring. Here’s hoping Beltane will bring a lttle more warmth and stability.
I have been in a similar conflict myself this past month or so; there has been an unexpected amount of loss and struggle in my life that has really shaken up and brought into focus a lot of things I’ve been questioning since the dark end of last year. One of those things is my continued running of Walk the Wheel.
I imagine many of you will have guessed this already; various attempts to change things and try new formats can often indicate uncertainty of the path ahead. This uncertainty can be exciting, inspiring and very desirable, particularly as we forge ahead into a new growing season. However it can also be frustrating, debilitating and an indicator that things need to change…
I’ve realised that my uncertainty is of the second kind.
I’ve been fighting this truth for some months; although I’ve sensed a need to release Walk the Wheel in its current form into the ether, seeing where it eventually ends up and perhaps allowing it to transform and be born anew in the future, I’ve been too afraid to do so. Afraid it would look like failure or a waste and afraid to lose all the wonderful connections I’ve made along the way. Despite being a great advocate of letting go and trusting in the cycles of nature, my instinct has been overcome by my fear of losing the friendships and community that I have been blessed to know and be a part of over these past years. Some of these friendships are still quite new, others go back much further; all are very important to me and something I am loath to see lost because I am feeling ‘uncertain’.
But if there is one thing walking the Wheel has taught me its that these feelings are often nudges towards a new path that holds new adventures and opportunities; for now I think my path needs to move away from organising Walk the Wheel.
So it is with a heavy but hopeful heart that I’m calling off this Saturday’s gathering. Our Spring Equinox in March evening ended so beautifully with the assembled Wheel Walkers stepping into the light of Spring and forming a circle of candles together; this feels like a great testament to all we have created together over the years and the right moment to end on. I will not be organising any other seasonal celebrations, indoor or out, until further notice; but if I ever do I promise you will all be the first to know about it.
I hope that your celebration of the festivals of the Wheel will continue regardless. No doubt we will all discover new and exciting inspirations and opportunities and I would love to hear all about them so please keep in touch! I hope to keep sending out ocassional newsletter-type-things and updating the blog to keep folks up to date on any other work and/or one-off events I may be creating so watch this space (and drop me an email if you’d like to be on the mailing list!)
I truly hope that all those who have attended Walk the Wheel in the past know they are welcome (and encouraged!) to stay in touch; you all hold a warm place in my heart and I would love to see you all again out in the big, wide, World.
To that end, if anyone feels called to take up the mantle and organise some seasonal events themselves…PLEASE DO! As so many people have said to me in the past, we need these celebrations and I will be very happy to help any way I can; giving advice, letting people know about them and of course attending! Celebrating with you all has been a great joy and I’d love to do it again (without being the one in charge). So if you have the itch, I urge you to follow it and let me know if I can be of any assistance.
So, to clarify, there will not be a Beltane gathering at Rollins Wood this Saturday and no other seasonal gatherings with Walk The Wheel at this time; however Rollins Wood is a community woodland with a public footpath running through so feel free to go along, enjoy being outdoors and mark the season in your own way (respectfully, of course and weather permitting!)
Which leaves me to say a huge thank you to everyone who has celebrated with me these past four years. From the early days right through to last month’s Equinox gathering; all have been a joy to hold and experience. I am blessed to know each one of you and only hope that our relationships – perhaps the greatest achievement of WtW – will continue to grow and flourish in the days, weeks and months to come.
May the Land hold you safe, the Sun light your way and the Sky smile softly upon you. Tread gently fellow Wheel Walkers.
Merry meet, merry part and merry meet again.